Hey… whoever is still clicking on a link to this blog… probably my friend Andrea (hi girl!) and my lovely sis in law (hi Amy!)
I was not planning on taking a long vacation from blogging, yet, I did. So what did I do all these months? Let’s see… sometimes, I did too much. You guys, I’ve been so stressed lately, which is probably why I got so sick this past weekend (along with husband and kiddo, we were a sight to see, I tell you what!)
We are settled in our little place. It’s nice to have free laundry, D has kids to play with, there’s a backyard, and other stuff I mentioned on my last post about this. The commute to work sucks, and part of the big stress was work, still is, since I haven’t changed jobs. I am changing shifts, I will be working during the day so I can spend nights with my guys, I hope things work out a little better. I had my hopes really high for a really good paying job that didn’t pan out and I was very disappointed, but it wasn’t meant to be.
I finished taking a class for CNAs called Acute care, which prepares you to work in a hospital environment. That was another huge stress, we had to juggle my schedule with Ben’s schedule and thankfully the mom from upstairs has been awesome when I needed someone to watch D. Now that that’s over I can breathe a little more.
Ben started a class to help him prepare for the MCAT (Medical College Admission Test) it’s still surreal that he’s preparing to one day become a doctor, he’ll be a great one too, I know it. He’s really stressed about the amount of studying that test requires and I know that it’s probably nothing compared to the amount of stuff he’ll have to cram once he gets to Med school. Poor guy, I want to help him somehow, but I suppose doing housework and contributing to our finances will have to do for now. Gosh, I hope I didn’t sound sarcastic, because I wasn’t being sarcastic at all, I know he appreciates what I do around the house.
I’m excited because 1. my younger brother is engaged! He’s been dating this really nice girl, and I couldn’t be happier for them! And 2. we’re heading back to Utah at the end of this month for a few days. Good food and good people! We need a little break before May, which is when Ben takes this beast of a test.
What else… we bought an iPad, which is such an awesome device. If you don’t have one and don’t know the awesomeness that it is, go to the Apple website and check it out.
On anniversaries and birthdays… December was the rough month, of course. I missed him a lot those days, more than usual, but it was so nice to have family and friends think of us on those days, some of our family members even went to visit his grave on the 21st and that really touched me. 4 years is too long, he would have been 6 years old now… I can’t picture him that old and yet, sometimes I want to, I would love to see what he would look like as an older little boy with that crazy hair and those beautiful big eyes and long eyelashes…
That’s about it for now, I don’t think I have any recent photos, if I upload some more to this computer I’ll come back and post.
I blog about married life, motherhood, being a CNA, living in San Francisco, trying not to forget Castellano and living after child loss. 
